truth be told, some days are definitely better and today just happened to be one of those better days. the simple things will always prevail in making me happy. friends stopping by unannounced. going to buy a new cd that is outside of my comfort zone. blasting that cd while driving randomly around town with the windows rolled down. watching the best tv show ever. and even though me and you did a lot of arguing today, even though you yelled at me for an hour and a half straight, even though tears were shed, i think it was exactly what we needed. to be honest, ive never loved you so much. p.s. i love that we both love skittles. youre amazing ♥
so my mom threw a lia sophia party the other day. lots of people came and i was happy because i knew my mom would have been disappointed if it was a bad turnout. also, a lot of people ordered jewelry and a few people even booked their own lia sophia parties. this is fantastic news because that means we get a lot of free jewelry. im getting an ankle bracelet, a toe ring, and a ring. im pretty excited.
hmhmhm what else? i have officially decided that im going to warped tour along with a million other people. we are taking a mini van and a car. wow fun. i definitely plan on seeing mayday parade, the rocket summer, we the kings, and attack attack. ive already forgetten who else is going. im pretty sad that motion city soundtrack and the all-american rejects wont be at the milwaukee warped tour. that completely sucks dick. but whatever. its still going to be awesome.
having a job isnt as terrible as i thought it would be. it only sucks when in conflicts with my plans and when ive had a shit day and i just dont feel like going. otherwise its been great to finally have money to just spend on whatever.
i am obnoxiously pissed at playlist.com. it totally fucked up my blog playlist and my john mayer playlist that i made. im not sure when i will have the motivation to fix those things. i love john mayer so much. damn you, playlist.com.
i know that i really really really want to be a psychiatrist/psychologist/art therapist or whatever. ive even already picked out the college i want to go to. its an all girls catholic school in milwaukee. its pretty much perfect. but sometimes i just feel like that isnt exciting at all. i feel like its obnoxiously cliche and predictable. sometimes, i like to dream of being a make up artist or a tattoo artist. i really do like make up but for some reason i feel like i dont belong in that profession so ive held myself back from persuing it. plus, i dont think i would get support from anyone to do it. i would love to live an edgy life and be a tattoo artist. i want so many tattoos and i love artwork. but once again, i dont feel like im talented enough and i dont feel like i belong. i would definitely be happy being a psychiatrist but sometimes i like to dream. maybe i could have a side job or something. who knows.
i wonder where we will live when we get old enough to own a place together. will you want to go south or will you want to stay in the midwest. maybe you dont want to do either of those. i honestly cant picture myself anywhere but in the midwest. i love madison, milwaukee, and chicago. any other place, id be very reluctant to live in. i wonder what type of house we will buy. a townhouse, a ranch style, an apartment. i wonder what our kids will look like. will they have your curly hair? will they be skinny like me? i hope they like swingsets. id be heartbroken if they didnt. and i hope they like skittles. haha who doesnt like skittles? =] how many pets will we have? ive never had a dog so im not sure if i would like living with one. we will for sure have kitties. i wonder what sort of trips we will take. i wonder if everything will be perfect like ive always imagined it.
summer is pretty much half over. i wish i would stop counting down the days. i am so far from excited for next school year to start but i am going to try my hardest to take a different approach on things. i dont want it to be another miserable year. but i want to stop thinking about that. its summer.
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sorry about that comment thing :/ wish i could help ya out, but i guess blogger has a mind of its own.
otherwise, i wanna tell you how much i like hearing your thoughts. i hope you dont see it as an invasion of your privacy since we havent talked in a while. but since youve stopped twitter i havent been able to know whats up with you. then i remembered you saying that you wanted to start blogging again, so i came here and read what youve posted recently. and im glad to hear youre still alive. hah :) i really regret not being there for you in the hard times in your life, ashley. you mean a lot to me and ive never taken the time to show it. i respect you more than pretty much everyone i know, even though we occasionally have differing opinions. that happens to everybody. and i know we will never be as close as we once were, but i want you to know that im still around. i still love who you are, and i always will.
since i read all about what's been going on in your life, i really want to tell you about whats been going on in mine. but unfortunately i cant put it all down here. so ill keep it short. i went to alaska last week, and its everything you imagined it would be, its beautiful. i could still see you living there someday. while i was there, i met a boy from california. he helped me get over caleb (who is now dating katie godding by the way). this boy is amazing, i could go on forever about how much he makes me smile, but we'll never be able to be together because of the distance :/ but i guess its nice to know there are other boys out there. if im lucky ill go out and visit him later this summer.
tomorrow i leave for church camp, so i wont be able to check this for a while, but i just wanted you to know how i feel. and hopefully ill have a chance to tell you more about my summer later. maybe even if we can find time, we could get together and talk. id love to see you if youd be up for it :)
<3 always, katie
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