Damn You Look Good, And I'm Drunk

the really big news is that today is mine and austin's three month anniversary =] honestly, i love that boy more and more each day. even tho he didn't buy me tickets to see william control tomorrow >=[ i shall forgive him XD ^_^

in other news, my kitchen remodelling is FINALLY almost done. yay!

it's been such a long time since i've posted and i can't think of much to say

i really want to go shopping. i might be going to chicago this coming weekend. if i do, i am definitely gonna hit up Epic Burger. also, the mall. the only bad thing about this trip is i have nooooo money at all. that sucks balls.

backseat goodbye came to madison, wisconsin last saturday. i was extremely pissed cuz i found out the day of and i was in madison at the same time of his show. life couldn't get any worse. but then i found out it was pre-sold out so i guess that was okay. now, tomorrow william control is coming to milwaukee with some people and they are going to host an after show party at denny's. i so badly want to go but i can't. life just got worse.

things have been going pretty well for me since the last time. i couldn't be more happy. i can't wait for spring =] austin and his mom are planning on moving and they might move closer to me. that means going for walks, going to the park, watching movies, laying in the sun, and spending lots and lots of time together. haha eventually we are gonna get bored with eachother. =]

i think it's the sun. the sun has made things better. now, if only the weather would be a touch warmer. the world would be perfect.

note to self: i need to spend more time with people whose names are NOT austin

Nightmares Are For Dreamers

dreams come when you're in a very light sleep. when you're not too exhausted so your mind can still function. i guess i've just been far too tired lately, because i haven't dreamt in forever. the last dream i had was about this girl whom i hate with a passion becoming my step-sister and then all of a sudden she was cool. such a shame she couldn't become cool in real life also. never mind. to be frank among the commencement, i want to have a nightmare. for pure adrenaline purposes. i wouldn't call myself an adrenaline junkie or anything severe like that, i just enjoy the thrill. i wish my mind was like a horror movie when i slept. either that or a romance novel. lmao XD i'm trying to be serious here.

the weather outside is pleasing to me now. the sky reminds me of winter the way that it is so white with clouds and the air is thin and chill. yet, the ground reminds me of autumn because it is littered with orange and red leaves that provide a satisfying crunch when your feet stomp them to smithereens. the trees are somewhere in between. a majority of them are bare and bony. however, a few are still sprinkled with tiny, shriveling leaves. i like it. winter hasn't completely taken over. soon though. very soon.

i realized a few days ago that my music taste or preference tends the change along with the seasons. most obviously, this summer i was very into pop/punk/dance whatnot. but now that the skies have darkened, i'm leaning more towards rock/screamo/hardcore. those are horrible examples of the genres i listen to. my favorite way to summarize my music is with one simple word: alternative. but, i had to compare and contrast here. any who, my preference is for dark and dreary and dismal rather than what it was in the summer bright and bouncy and bodacious. i like this change though. not like i'm forgetting my other artists or anything like that. they just aren't on my most played playlist. =]