the distance grows as the ground approaches

yesterday, i went to the mall with my mom, my boyfriend, and his mom. they had this store called furry babies. i thought it was like a stuffed animal place but when we walked past it had puppies! in cribs!! not from puppy mills!!! i got to hold a miniature husky. she fell asleep in my arms and it broke my heart that i couldn't take her home. i'm definitely going to get a husky when i get older. i'm gonna give it a badass vampire name haha. don't ask. i also want a bulldog named Chub Chub. and a mutt =] and a kitty named Olysaurus. awww animals are cute.

the only thing that sucked about the mall was that i didn't have any money. all i had was 17 dollars in quarters that skyler gave me to buy him gauges. boy, the guy at hot topic, chase, really loved that. literally, he was laughing the whole time. i love people that work there.

sooooo, this week is going to be THEEE most kickass week ever known to mankind. first off, i'm going to be chilling with the girls at the fair, riding rides for a flat fee of 25 dollars =] then i'm also gonna see some of my girlies at my mom's company picnic. may not seem like fun but it really is. also, the best news EVERRR, i'm going to warped tour!!!!!! ahhh!! so, originally, austin's mom was supposed to take us but then she got a new job and had to do training that day so i was bummed as fucking bum fuck egypt. basically, i was not a happy camper. however, two days ago this amazing girl named jasmine who is the girlfriend of this amazing boy named jordan offered to let me and austin come with them to warped tour since her mom was driving and they had two extra seats. yay! austin's mom bought tickets and we are going this thursday!!! god, i've been waiting three years for this =] i swear i'm going to cry for days when i see aiden. no syke.

ahhh i've been alright lately. my three photography projects got first place. one was up for a higher award along with 134 other projects. sadly, it didn't get anything. but, my two drawings also got first place and one of those is up for a higher award. i shall have to see soon what it gets. i also have to wait and see what my curtains and popcan candle holder get.

fair is probably one of my favorite times of the year. yet, it is also a sign that summer is wrapping up. i just need to make the most of the time that is left.

happy pants

so i recently got my two photography projects done =] i did one at olbrich botanical gardens in madtown. i think i got some pretty alright flower shots. i need to narrow that down to five pics. also, i did my portrait project with austin ^_^ at riverside park by my house. we took them right by the river. i need to pick my favorite one of those. all together, i took 70 pictures. a holy fucking lot of them. i'm only going to post my faves on here sometime soon cuz i am really proud of them. as far as my drawing goes, don't expect to be seeing any of that on here. i wish drawing was as fast as taking pictures. but whatever.

on another note, i'm not so stressed out about stuff anymore. skyler, kinda annoying after a while. candice, just another drama queen who can say whatever she wants. and i barely remember what else was bothering me. also, the doctor gave me some acid reflux pills that are totally helping. let's just hope i don't gain weight from all this eating.

so last week, i hung out with austin for like 4 days straight. it was kinda amazing. tonight, i'm going to see west side story with my bestie, katie. a shit ton of people i know are in it. be sure to look for my pictures soon. please tell me what you think. =] that's all for now. i don't actually have any really big stories. that's what happens in the summer. toodles.

the thunder

june 11th, 2009: my freshman year of highschool ended. i can't believe i survived. in all honesty, high school was different in a lot of ways. for one thing, it was a lot less scary than i imagined as far as teachers and getting lost go. seriously, shit was kinda easy. however, people weren't. as usual, people will always change throughout the years. a majority of my friends changed clothes and friends and whatnot. good to say that personalities didn't differ by too much. i met a lot of cool people. some were people i knew before but never got a chance to click with. some were people i never thought i would have a chance with. some were just people i thought were funny (farmer emo kid). least to say, my first year of high school didn't kill me. i can't say that i've changed a drastic amount or anything like that but i have improved in some ways. i've kept a relationship with most of my close friends (exception to those who went to the other high school in town) and i've kept a boyfriend for over six months now. i took some hard classes, some being harder than others with better teachers than others, and i managed to get no lower than a B+ in all of them. so what if i didn't get a 4.0 like some people. i won't graduate valedictorian or be head of my class. however, i am happy with how i performed and i challenged myself to the fullest extent that i could.

not only did i do good as far as academics and friends, i also took a lot of time to figure myself out. i now have a great idea of what i want to do in my future. also, i know my place in high school. i am far from a popular kid. i don't do the whole american eagle, ambercrombie, hollister junk. i never will. at the same time, i don't live at pac sun and hot topic anymore haha. i'm not preppy, i'm not emo, i'm not a hick, i'm not a geek. in fact, i don't think i'm much of anybody. i'm kind of artsy in my own lil way. one day i'll wear something cute, one day will just be tank tops, another will be band tshirts. i still love my skinny jeans. i've picked up on the flip flops thing but i still love vans slip ons and chuck taylors in the fall and winter =]. i'm still who i was before and then some. i've extended myself. i may not be known all throughout the school. i'm not in band and i don't do the school plays like a lot of my friends. but i don't care. i like who i am. i don't need a lot of people to know my name. i don't need a lot of friends who only talk to me because of the clothes i wear. i'm happy with my nobody status as long as i know my friends are true and always there for me.

high school. i can't find any way to describe it besides life changing and i'm only one year thru. i didn't freak out like i thought i was going to and i tried my best to not let the pressure get to me like i know A LOT of kids did. my next three years i know what to expect and i know i'm going to do well no matter how much i worry about grades or fitting in and all that junk. i think i've got a pretty good grip on things.

this year was my first year in a while that i was begging for summer to come. even tho high school was fun and all, it is a lot of pressure and work. this summer i don't have a dumb pushy show choir to worry about. i've got a boyfriend to spend time with and a best friend to catch up with =]. i've also got a huge stack of books waiting to get read and an art portfolio waiting to be created. possibly i'll attempt some photography or work on my tan lol. all i know is i'm gonna relax and take some time for me as well as keeping in touch with people.

high school...