ad astra per aspera

i'm sorta upset about my grades in school. i didn't go to conferences because no one could take me [which makes me slightly more upset] so i did not receive my reportcard. but i know enuf to see that i didn't get a 4.0 or anything like that. i got a few A-'s and a B which really does upset me cuz i know i could have and i should have done better. i might as well abolish this post's title that i loved so much before because it does not suit me. i get frustrated when things do not come to me easily and it brings me down when i see my friends just flying by everything like it's no work at all.

my friend taylor has kinda been pissing me off lately. she always seems so involved with herself. sometimes she can't even take two seconds to say hi to me when i see her. i can never talk when i'm around her because she's always too busy telling her own stories. and whenever i want to talk to my other friends, she's already talking their ears off. i feel very neglected when that happens. just like i feel neglected when i'm walking with my friends in the hall but they form a line and leave me behind. ugh. however, i seem to really be enjoying my friend tai right now. she's just really easy to talk to and she's really funny. also, she knows what sort of things bother me and what makes me laugh my ass off. i remember in past years we used to butt heads a lot cuz we are both opinionated people, but lately we seem to be putting our thoughts together and that makes up for taylor's ego.

my birthday is this coming sunday. November 23. and honestly, i can't say i'm excited or anything. i already got a majority of my gifts early. my mom made the concert in october my birthday present. my dad gave me money to buy t-shirts at the concert. and my grandparents purchased me a wonderfully expensive [$80] coat. i don't even think my brother has considered buying me a gift yet. but presents don't matter too much to me. i'm kinda happy to be one year older but at the same time it's like another year of my life wasted. where does the time go nowadays?

so that alex kid that i've been talking about lately. the one from my homecoming group. i finally got his number and we have been texting mostly every day. just simple lil conversations. i really like this kid you guys [and apparently his family can't keep a secret cuz dave told him i liked him] but i just don't think anything will come of this. i guess i was wrong in thinking that since his entire family is catholic he is a catholic. i found out that he's not. idk what to think of this like if he's still really religious or not. either way, i am not very religious at all and i don't think he likes swearing much and i do that a lot. plus, he's really into basketball and exercising and dance and i don't do anything. basically, we are sorta two different people and i can't see the forest for the trees. but i'm not going to dwell on the little things and give up. he's still a cool friend. [aw fuck, i just gave up]

it seems like i don't just do anything for fun anymore. i'm always just focusing on school and homework and other shiz. i don't know. so there's this kid at school named austin. lol he's pretty obnoxious and i'm really cool with that. i've never actually held a conversation with him or anything but i still think he's cool. he likes the foo fighters, the devil wears prada, and drop dead, gorgeous. and apparently he wants to be a ninja when he grows up. so i look forward to passing him in the halls a million times before class starts in the morning. and here's the thing, i don't care what anyone else thinks of him. i don't care if people don't see him as anything special or if people don't think he's hot cuz he's hilarious.

Wake Up; You're A Drama Queen

i'm gonna be honest you guys. not much has changed since the last time i posted. i can't really say anything worth while has happened. jeez, how boring is that? very. life is at a standstill. i guess i never said how dodgeball went.

we showed up and we looked pretty dashing for the most part. however, looks could not save us. let's just say we weren't the best team out there. XD but it was still worth it. i had a lot of fun and i laughed a whole lot. i would definitly do it again. except this time, our team should practice before hand.

we have another four day weekend this week. thursday and friday off! i could really use those extra days off. i'm running behind on sleep and i'm sick of going to bed so early. yes, i do consider 10:30pm to be early. midnight is more my speed. i don't think i have very much to do tho besides sleep. i'm pretty sure i'm going to spend the day at the hanus's house on friday. which should be fun. i'm kinda hoping alex isn't busy and is willing to pop by. my luck isn't that stellar. otherwise, i don't think i have plans. that bothers me. i'll be doing a whole lot of nothing.

it just came to my attention that i know a lot of people with the same name. alex is a prime example. and i do recognize that my stories are not as thourough when i am speaking of these people with same names. it may come off as very confusing. i don't really know how to fix that. my friends should get more creative names.

i'm gonna focus a majority of my freetime on reading. that is a goal of mine. i have a lot of books that i want to read and i'm sick of getting into the first chapter and losing interst. i also wanna work on writing a short story a two. granted, the short story will be for my health class at the end of the quater; but i'm trying really hard to come up with something amazing. the last story i wrote for health, i did it in one day. the teacher liked it a lot i guess but i know the amount of effort i put into it. i want something really special that will be phenomenal this time. and i'm not gonna procrastinate.

Straight Up ~ Epic Fail

this is my report on homecoming last night =]

the evening began when it was still light outside. me and my brother aaron headed over to our friends' house. friends=katie [not katiesaurus different girl], brianna, brielle, and nettie and her friend niteal. we sat around for a while then did our hair. niteal put a black ribbon in my hair and said my hair was "silky" so nettie came over to feel it. it wasn't awkward at all. then, we got all dolled up and when we came out i had the privilege of meeting some of katie, brianna, and nettie's relatives-alex and evan. they were super cool. to be honest, i sorta thought evan was gay cuz he has that higher voice and lil attitude. *shrugs* but he comes from a really strict catholic family so i don't think so. alex said all the girls looked nice and he was smiling at me the whole time. or maybe i was dreaming.

after that, we headed over to a park/playground to take some pictures. nettie's boyfriend tyler came along and so did her sister debbie. we went on the twirly slide which was kinda chaotic but really fun and we hit the swings. i usually don't like pictures but these were awesome cuz we were doing the oddest of things. =] we eventually made our way to dinner at old country buffet. nettie and tyler went their own way cuz they were going to the clinton homecoming instead of the parker homecoming and debbie went back home. not much to say about dinner except that i really enjoyed talking to evan and alex and everyone thought i was weird for getting a cupcake and only eating the frosting. psh.

night had killed the day and we arrived at parker highschool. the theme of the dance was the dark night. they had the bat signal shining on the school which i thought was really cool but once we got inside i thought the decorations were lame. i was hoping for more drastic stuff. for the first half, i had like zero fun. we only danced a lil bit and i was being sorta shy. i had a slow dance with alex tho and i felt extremely awkward. i'm sure my face was red. katie[saurus] along with taylor, zach, and keagan came about and hour later. i decided to hang with those guys after that. i didn't completely ditch everyone else but ya know. we also saw jocelyn and her sister and a lot of other people. i finally began having fun. it always takes me a long time to warm up to dances. it was amazing tho. zach kept wiping his sweat on me. i thought katie looked really pretty ^_^ and my shoes were killing my feet. we jumped around a lot and i did so much laughing that my abs started to hurt. i had a lot of fun. however, it had to end sometime.

i said all my goodbyes to katie[saurus] taylor, zach and keagan and went home with katie, brianna, brielle, aaron, alex and evan. on the drive home, me and evan discussed my favorite adjectives. i was over joyed about that conversation. i told him i liked the word straight cuz it goes perfectly with up and he said he liked the word epic cuz it sounded great with fail. teehee X]

we got back to katie, brianna and nettie's house and just chilled. i couldn't get comfortable in the seat that i had chosen cuz i'm dumb like that. me and evan discussed what soda we like and dislike. alex and i talked about...i don't really know. we just sorta talked =] there was a lot of laughing and i was sad cuz nobody wanted to watch the fresh prince besides me alex and evan but they both wanted to watch robocop more. i still had a blasty blast.

me and aaron headed back home around 1 am and i was sad cuz i wanted to stay longer. i'm really glad i met alex and evan. i think they're my favoritest people evah. i wanna be like best friends with evan cuz he's that cool. and omg you guys. i think i really like alex. i don't get butterflies for him or increased heart rates but he makes me smile and laugh a lot and all i can think about is how i wanna see him again. i just don't think it'll be that way =/

anyway, it was a spectacular time =] haha hope my story wasn't too long.