i hope i'm studying for my exams enuf. i just got done writing the notes for the three exams i have tomorrow. i'm pretty confident about my spanish exam. i enjoy that class so it should be easy. i'm scared shitless about global studies honors. the lil mo fo teacher hardly told us what we needed to study and we aren't allowed to have any form of notes for the test. chemisty should be alright. i have a full sheet of notes to use and i think i can get thru it. that's what i have tomorrow. thursday i have geometry honors and health. i have to fill out my notes for geometry. i'm hoping that's not too bad. health, we can use any sheets that he gave us throughout the year. i should survive those. friday i have art and english. i'm not sure what's on the art test, but i'm fucked for english.
so, i was complaining about my gpa earlier. i thought i could do better and i should have gotten a 4.0 instead of a 3.763. well, i realized this quarter that it's completely my fault. i'm just lazy. i could get an A in art this semester, but i decided to blow off my perspective drawing and not do it. my teacher told me today that since i didn't do that, i am for sure going to get a B. so i screwed myself there. does that mean that i'm not smart? no, not at all. it just means that i have a lot of shit on my mind right now and i'm letting it affect my school. therefore, whatever grades i get this quarter, i can completely blame that on myself. what a good feeling.
i really like sarcasm and sarcastic people
all i can think about right now is school
exams
should i study more?
i think i have it all down
should i be more anxious?
i'm too calm right now
fuck!
you guys, i'm so not hanging on here. there's a lot of shit getting to me. my mood is not right. there were a lot of things today that should have been funny, but i didn't even laugh. what the hell is wrong? i can't imagine what i have to be upset about. nothing new at least. yeah, there's a lot of stuff that happened in the past, but that shouldn't be producing this much of a change right now. i have a lot of things going for me right now: the perfect guy, good friends, smarts. maybe....i have no idea.
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stay focused and good luck! x
we're a lot alike. you're in my beginning stages of depression. snap yourself out of it. it sounds like you need a nice day to yourself. when exams are over. take a day to pamper yourself and just relax. maybe a day at the spa with your mother would bring you and your mom closer? try it, you would be surprised. if she says no, then you dont have yourself to blame for a bad relationship with your parents. at least your trying.
and as for school, next semester just really focus. not so much on boys. ;)
ah i didn't comment on this! i thought i did. im so sorry. i love you. exams are over so hang in there =]
and yeah you're totally right. i know its not all about having tons of friends and i hope that didn't come off as like me being conceited or dumb or something because i didn't mean it like that. id just like to spend more time with people, you know? id like to have more fun. so, idk. its all good. =]
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