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i'm currently following myself. haha keeping track of all the things i say and do. it's an important task. katie is also following me. for some odd reason, this girl wants to hear me talk and talk and talk and talk. well, if you enjoy doing this also [i can't imagine why] please, feel free to follow my blog. maybe i'll decide to follow yours also =] win win situation

This Color Quiz Thing That Katie Made Me Take

so i took this cuz katie told me to and i decided to post my lil results.

Ashley's Existing Situation
Active, but feels that insufficient progress or reward is being made for the effort exerted.

Ashley's Stress Sources
Has an unsatisfied need to ally herself with others whose standards are as high as her own, and to stand out from the herd. This desire for preeminence isolates her and inhibits her readiness to give herself freely. While she wants to surrender and let herself go, she regards this as a weakness which must be resisted. This self-restraint, she feels, will lift her above the rank and file and ensure recognition as a unique and distinctive personality.

Ashley's Restrained Characteristics
Has high emotional demands and is willing to involve herself in a close relationship, but not with any great depth of feeling.
Insists that her goals are realistic and sticks obstinately to them, even though circumstances are forcing her to compromise. Very exacting in the standards she applies to her choice of a partner.

Ashley's Desired Objective
Wants to make a favorable impression and be regarded as a special personality. Is therefore constantly on the watch to see whether she is succeeding in this and how others are reacting to her. this makes her feel she is in control. Uses tactics cleverly in order to obtain influence and special recognition. Susceptible to the esthetic or original.

Ashley's Actual Problem
Needs to be valued and respected as an exceptional individual, in order to increase her self-esteem and her feeling of personal worth. Resists mediocrity and sets herself high standards.

woah, it put my name in and stuff. anyway, i really liked this thing. and it gave pretty accurate results. yeah, that's kinda how i am. i think you should take it also. DO IT

It's What's Goin Down

alrighty, so i just took this lil life expectancy test. it was a small assignment for my healthy class. i guess right now i'm gonna live to about 63. however, if i go to some sort of graduate school, i'll live to be around 66. weird how education affects that sort of thing. that's really not that long. prolly cuz i never exercise. but i don't smoke or drink. i hate to say it but i think that thing is a bunch of bulls***. sorry =/

school started september 2nd. tbqh, i really wasn't scared at all. i didn't get lost the first day. so far my classes aren't obnoxiously hard or anything. chemistry is prolly my least favorite. i wish i knew more people in my class cuz now my lab partner is sorta a ditz. that doesn't matter much. english is my favorite. definitly. i'm getting a good dose of homework daily so that's kinda bleh. overall, highschool isn't that bad but it's also not a thrill. it's just school. =]

and i'm a wee bit excited right now. so the cobra starship, forever the sickest kids, hit the lights and sing it loud tour is coming around and my mom is actually considering taking me and katie. she just has to look at tickets and everything. she said she'll maybe take us as long as we don't banish her to a corner. even tho i can be mean to my mom sometimes, i don't think i would do that to her. she might almost be a hot guy repelant but why should she sit in the dark while we have the time of our lives? it just doesn't seem fair.
ugh! idk why i'm talking about this so much but just wait katie. i'm hoping my mom will decide this week. k? you order the tickets and i'll pay you back. =D

a lot of my friends are acting sorta different now that school has started. i used to text my friend alex all the time and now he seems like he's annoyed by me. =/ and jocelyn has become a major drama queen. she's taking quite some time to adjust to highschool. and zac, i used to hate him a lot but last saturday he was really really nice to me so now i guess i don't care anymore. i can't think of any more right now.

i should get to doing my homework cuz i do have a lot of it. woo! i'll get right on that...eventually =]

I Think All My Neighbors Died

there is like nobody outside in my neighborhood today. it's just so weird cuz usually all i hear is loud children screaming, people talking, hammers banging, lawnmowers running. plus, it's gorgeous as hell today. there's not a single cloud in the bright blue sky. a light breeze is shaking around the leaves. the air is perfectly warm. birds are creating lovely music. gee, that makes me think about how i'm spending this gorgeous day. dead just like all my neighbors. inside my house on the computer...

i'm gonna go for a walk now

In Other News

i put up a new profile video [on my profile]
ya know, i was bored and searching around on youtube
then i found this
and omg i loved it so much that nothing could make me happier
its The Matches
dancing to the song "Insurance?"
by The Higher
and omg you must watch it
why did i put this up?
because i'm sorta obsessed with The Matches
and i love The Higher's song "Insurance?"
and i loved watching how Shawn Harris got so into it
those guys are hot dancers
so please watch it
and enjoy it

Hear This!

i um, changed one of the video bars at the bottom of my lil bloggie. the one i am speaking of used to be Good Charlotte. it has now changed to Escape The Fate. why is this? because approximately 4.346 minutes ago i watched one of their videos and decided [once again] that they are amazing. and considering the fact that i no longer have any of their music in my playlist, i think they deserve a bar. check it out, or don't. doesn't really matter to me cuz in the end it's your loss. mkay? now that you all know...

Everybody Knows How Tomorrow's Such A Let Down

so, this post has no real meaning. no actual point. in fact, i'm still not sure what i wanna write about. all i know is that i need to make a new post cuz i'm sick of looking at my school schedule. hm, speaking of that, let's start out with the new school year.

september second is the big day. and ya know what? i'm beginning to look at this with an open mind. for a pessimist i'm pretty optimistic. i don't know. maybe i'm hoping to meet some new people. like friends and stuff. not saying that i'll ever meet anyone cooler than the people i already know [cuz that will never happen] but this is a new stage in my life and instead of tying to shun it away i'm learning how to embrace it. i tell ya, it's gonna make the first day of school a lil less axiety prone and a lil more exciting. i'm also, just maybe, hoping to meet some awesome guys. only maybe =]

i was thinking earlier today, about how horrible it would be if people could read my mind...[ill let you take that and run with it wherever your lil heart desires]
i also thought about how helpful it would be to have someone like sit on my shoulder and help guide me through life. so i could avoid absolutely screwing everything up.

that's about all i have for now. i'll have to continue this later i suppose.