Destination: Setting Sun

i sometimes wish i didn't steal most of my blog titles from songs. especially when i don't remember what song i stole it from. this one is from a song by The Academy Is... off their newest album. it reminds me of The Matches. if your name is katie biester then i'm sure you're catching my drift.

we had a snow day today =] i can't decide if i enjoy this or not. i really like snow, but not when it's a shitload of snow. plus, this means i can't see austin today [or any of my other friends of course]. however, i get to listen to music all day and catch up on some things like blogging and reading and watching tv. haha cuz i never get a chance to do those things anymore. i swear, i went almost a month without listening to my ipod. that's crazy business.

speaking of austin, me and him are going to see a movie this weekend. our plans still aren't final like about what we are seeing and whatnot. he's such a sweet kid tho. he offered to pick me up and take me home and pay for everything. haha ^_^ alas, my mom is being kinda prudish about the whole thing. she won't let him pick me up and drop me off. she's gonna drop me off at the theater and pick me up when the movie is done. which sucks cuz we wanted to go to the mall afterwards and chill. but she said no to that. she also said no to us hanging out today cuz she doesn't know him enuf and she can't trust me apparently. i'm kinda scared that he might break up with me if my mom is constantly telling me i can't hang out with him. ugh!

i don't but i do understand why PDA bothers a lot of people. yeah, public displays of affection can gross some people out but i've never seen it as such a big deal. honestly, a hug and a kiss or two is nothing to censor. haha maybe it's cuz i participate in PDA. yesterday after school me and austin stood at my locker hugging and whatnot for the longest time. not like we were making out. i wouldn't do that in public. all i'm saying is that people need to stop being so stuck up about things. live a little.

haha this kid makes me happy. no syke. i'm excited for christmas break. on my list of people to spend time with: katie, jocelyn, and austin. i might wanna do something with tai if she wants to do something with me. i haven't hung out with jocelyn in a while. that makes me sad. i love hanging out with katie and i hope she wants me over at her house cuz i plan on going over there either way =] haha i'm just playing. and of course i wanna hang with austin. i'm gonna get him UnderOath's new album [deluxe edition hopefully] for christmas cuz i'm not making it to a hot topic anytime soon and i know he is really into them and doesn't have that cd yet. he asked me what i want but i keep saying he doesn't need to get me anything cuz i always feel awkward when people other than my family give me gifts. idk y. i also need to get jocelyn something but i'm not sure what. hmhm

i have no idea why my art class is so eventful. a few days ago i mentioned to my teacher that i might want to be an art therapist and i guess she is really into that. she showed me her entire display of "art therapy" drawings in the hallway then she did a picture for me and let me work out my problems. i ended up feeling really good after that. and in fact, i managed to work out that problem so i'm really happy. i'm gonna tell her all about it tomorrow if we have school. anyway, so after that tai wanted me to do some art therapy for her so i could get some practice. i did and she and my teacher said it was a very good start. i'm still not sure if that's exactly what i wanna do but at least i know that i've got some support going. i think my art teacher is turning into my favorite teacher. she reminds me of mrs. semrad in some ways minus the strict boundaries.

mmm i've been really happy lately =]

Open Up Your Eyes, I Wanna Watch You Cry

t-t-today after lunch, as i was heading towards health class, this kid came up in front of me and stopped me. i'm not kidding when i say he looke like a dumbass. he had a wifebeater on with these baggy pants, droopy eyes, and an ugly ass buzz cut.
"My friend was wondering if you had a boyfriend?" he was holding this bottle of chocolate milk really high in the air and i didn't understand why.
"Um...no"
"Would you wanna go out with him? He's the one over there in the green and white jersey. He's laughing a lot" so i looked toward the direction he was pointing his milk and saw this kid who didn't have a buzzcut but looked retarded anyway. maybe i was just being judgemental but i didn't know these kids and the group of them was acting so [for lack of a better word] dumb.
"No thanks. I'm good"
"He really wants to get to know you better"
"No i don't think so"
"Why?
"Cuz" we had slowly been walking for the earlier portion, but at this point he stopped and i continued on.
before i had gotten out of hearing range i heard the wifebeater yell to his friend
"She said no"
and his friend replyed back with something like
"Well, no duh"
i didn't stick around long enuf to hear if there was more to it

i-i-i didn't know what these kids intentions were. whether the one kid really wanted to know me [he didn't seem like the type to be interested in me] or if they were just bored or desperate for something. *shrugs* there were lots of possibilities running thru my head.

b-b-but the day carried on like a wayward son. after health i went to art. i guess i'm pretty much done with my still life for now. i never told you guys the story of that, did i? i don't feel like it. anyway, i didn't wanna work on my portfolio project so i got out my sketchbook and my i-pod. one thing i like to do when i don't know what to draw is listen to music and pick out interesting song lyrics. i got this one from a cobra starship song. "Open up your eyes, i wanna watch you cry" i hope that's the right thing and i didn't mess it up. i don't even remember what song it's from. so, i started doodling the words and a lil eye to go along with it. my plan was to make a tear coming from the corner and to make lots of eyeliner and mascara smudged all down the page. sorta like the album cover of escape the fate's dying is your latest fashion. hehe =] anyway, when class had finished the teacher came up to me and mentioned something about my drawing. i couldn't really hear what she said cuz tbh, i wasn't paying attention. she may have said something like "i took a picture of your work" or "i really liked your drawing" it sounded like one of the two and it was followed by "because it shows how students are thinking about other things during school besides the usual work. did you write that line?" "no, it's a song lyric" "oh, that's a really good lyric" then the bell rang. i guess i just found that interesting. i enjoy paraphrasing my days like parasuicides. failed attempts i never could forget.

i-i-n spanish class today we got an assignment to create the perfect best friend. we have to tell where they are from and what they are like and whatnot. i could create katie but i dont think i will. =] i considered making a combination of all my best friends but i thought that it would be so amazing that it would explode. so, i decided to make a best guy friend. cuz i don't have one of those and i really want one. i'm really excited about this. it's gonna be so much fun.

a-a-also, i think i failed to mention that the desk conversation in that class is back on. and i almost have an idea of who it might be.
"FML"
"So hard"
"FTW"
"Thats sick"
"Youre sick"
"Thats what he said"
"possibly"
the possibly is what i wanted to discuss. so this kid, zach eicher, if you've read katie's blog you know him. i suspect him for a few reasons. today during geometry he totally siad the word possibly just how i imagined desk writer saying it. also, he's in spanish II and he has the same teacher as me but a different hour. how crazy would that be? lawl

b-b-bringing sassy back tomorrow night =]

I Think All My Neighbors Died

there is like nobody outside in my neighborhood today. it's just so weird cuz usually all i hear is loud children screaming, people talking, hammers banging, lawnmowers running. plus, it's gorgeous as hell today. there's not a single cloud in the bright blue sky. a light breeze is shaking around the leaves. the air is perfectly warm. birds are creating lovely music. gee, that makes me think about how i'm spending this gorgeous day. dead just like all my neighbors. inside my house on the computer...

i'm gonna go for a walk now