We All Get What We're Deserving Of

oh it makes my lips tingle! the word clusterfuck is a personal fave.

this morning it smelt like worms outside because of the rain we got last night. that scent displeases me >_<

so i should've metioned this earlier. about 8 days ago, but...oops. i really like october. to me, the entire month of october is like one big halloween celebration. once those decorations hit peoples lawns it's like BAM! halloween bitches! so yeah, i pretty much have my own month long celebration going on with that cuz i don't think anyone else actually thinks the same as i do. i'm also like that with the month of december and christmas. it's a jolly good time folks. =]

today, when i arrived in my spanish class i took a look at my desk and it was bare. there was a faint trace of pencil marks in the shape of a milkshake but nothing remained. that damn janitor caught word of the mutilation of school property. so, mutilation is a harsh word for having a desk conversation. anyway, i was sad but what can you do about it cept move on. it was no big deal from the start.

in global studies, i have a really cool teacher. everyone says that mr. conway is way cooler but i think mr. maurman is pretty amazing himself sometimes. the things we rant about in that class...sososo, mr. maurman is gonna be a chaperone at homecoming and while talking about this, he pulled out a huge stack of rulers. they exist still kids! save room for the holy spirit if ya smell what i'm stepping in. =P

speaking of homecoming, it's spirit week this week. monday was rival day so we had to wear gear from the rival highschool in town. tuesday was color war day so all the grades had to wear a certain color. today was superhero day which i loved and hated because some of the kids were hilarious but others were just fucktards. thursday is farmer day cuz our highschool is best known as cow pie high. old nickname. and to finish it off, friday is spirit day so we sposed ta wear school colors. i like this week a lot tho i'm not the biggest participator.

so in the beginning of the year, i had a lot of anxiety and i never could figure out the cause. well, now those feelings have purdy much left my soul [for the most part]. in fact, i've been invaded with some lame lethargy. i don't wanna be all sappy and complain about it. i just could'nt care less about shit. i do it but i don't care why. no real excitement or enthusiasm. just lethargy. it fills the air in my bubble.

one last thing before i go. been speaking of homecoming a lot and i'm extremely bothered that i'm not actually going with someone. i mean i'm going with friends and all but it's not a "someone". i wish i had a date. i wish i actually had a crush on someone. there isn't a single soul roaming around that i feel "feelings" for. no one gives me those butterflies or increased heart rate. i long for those feelings. the good kind of anxiety...=/