t-t-today after lunch, as i was heading towards health class, this kid came up in front of me and stopped me. i'm not kidding when i say he looke like a dumbass. he had a wifebeater on with these baggy pants, droopy eyes, and an ugly ass buzz cut.
"My friend was wondering if you had a boyfriend?" he was holding this bottle of chocolate milk really high in the air and i didn't understand why.
"Um...no"
"Would you wanna go out with him? He's the one over there in the green and white jersey. He's laughing a lot" so i looked toward the direction he was pointing his milk and saw this kid who didn't have a buzzcut but looked retarded anyway. maybe i was just being judgemental but i didn't know these kids and the group of them was acting so [for lack of a better word] dumb.
"No thanks. I'm good"
"He really wants to get to know you better"
"No i don't think so"
"Why?
"Cuz" we had slowly been walking for the earlier portion, but at this point he stopped and i continued on.
before i had gotten out of hearing range i heard the wifebeater yell to his friend
"She said no"
and his friend replyed back with something like
"Well, no duh"
i didn't stick around long enuf to hear if there was more to it
i-i-i didn't know what these kids intentions were. whether the one kid really wanted to know me [he didn't seem like the type to be interested in me] or if they were just bored or desperate for something. *shrugs* there were lots of possibilities running thru my head.
b-b-but the day carried on like a wayward son. after health i went to art. i guess i'm pretty much done with my still life for now. i never told you guys the story of that, did i? i don't feel like it. anyway, i didn't wanna work on my portfolio project so i got out my sketchbook and my i-pod. one thing i like to do when i don't know what to draw is listen to music and pick out interesting song lyrics. i got this one from a cobra starship song. "Open up your eyes, i wanna watch you cry" i hope that's the right thing and i didn't mess it up. i don't even remember what song it's from. so, i started doodling the words and a lil eye to go along with it. my plan was to make a tear coming from the corner and to make lots of eyeliner and mascara smudged all down the page. sorta like the album cover of escape the fate's dying is your latest fashion. hehe =] anyway, when class had finished the teacher came up to me and mentioned something about my drawing. i couldn't really hear what she said cuz tbh, i wasn't paying attention. she may have said something like "i took a picture of your work" or "i really liked your drawing" it sounded like one of the two and it was followed by "because it shows how students are thinking about other things during school besides the usual work. did you write that line?" "no, it's a song lyric" "oh, that's a really good lyric" then the bell rang. i guess i just found that interesting. i enjoy paraphrasing my days like parasuicides. failed attempts i never could forget.
i-i-n spanish class today we got an assignment to create the perfect best friend. we have to tell where they are from and what they are like and whatnot. i could create katie but i dont think i will. =] i considered making a combination of all my best friends but i thought that it would be so amazing that it would explode. so, i decided to make a best guy friend. cuz i don't have one of those and i really want one. i'm really excited about this. it's gonna be so much fun.
a-a-also, i think i failed to mention that the desk conversation in that class is back on. and i almost have an idea of who it might be.
"FML"
"So hard"
"FTW"
"Thats sick"
"Youre sick"
"Thats what he said"
"possibly"
the possibly is what i wanted to discuss. so this kid, zach eicher, if you've read katie's blog you know him. i suspect him for a few reasons. today during geometry he totally siad the word possibly just how i imagined desk writer saying it. also, he's in spanish II and he has the same teacher as me but a different hour. how crazy would that be? lawl
b-b-bringing sassy back tomorrow night =]
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lmao you silly. zach would've said perhaps, duh. but that would be funny if it was him.
those lyrics could be from any number of songs. i was so sure it was guilty pleasure, but i really don't know!! aagh this upsets me.
i love your stutter.
wow ur post hurt my eyes lol the text was so freakin tiny!!!
and u might not have been congratulated for posting the most but.....
congratulations for being the first follower of my blog lol!!!
for some reason i just saw what you left me on the 14th. it was like this....
"i know how your feeling cuz not too long ago i felt that same way. except ive been forced back into this sad reality. im doing all my homework and performing all my duties...."
it goes on, but it's sad to know other kids my age feel this way. we're not supposed to. we're young, and we should be enjoying that, having fun. i have to say though, i don't miss being happy. i miss feeling the other emotions besides sadness and anger, because that's all i am anymore. a bitter person. i hole up in my room for days at a time. of course i come out for school and work, but other than that mostly nothing. all i do is read write and draw. im lost in a fantasy land and the real world is so disappointing i can't keep up.
between you and me, we have to start trying to feel better. im going to try and find things that used to stimulate emotions in me. maybe you should do the same. both of us sound like we need it.
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