Tired and Lonely

okay, so i've been mega lonely lately. my brother is gone on a trip. my mom is always at work or taking night classes for college. my bestest friend, katie, is gone at camp. whenever i text someone, they never text me back. so i haven't had anyone to talk to for a while. and when i do get lonely, i go on the computer and there is never anyone online. no matter what site i go to. it's endless, cuz i go online like 10,000,000 times a day, even tho i hate it, and there is never anyone on but i just keep on checking.

"insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results." ~Albert Einstein
[yes, katie. i stole that from morgan. what she doesn't know won't hurt her]

so yeah, while i sit home alone and rot on the computer, i think about all the things i need to get done. i'm in 4-H and our county fair is coming up pretty quick. that means that i should be getting all my projects done. yeah right, i'm a friggin' procrastinator so i'm not getting them done anytime soon. but just thinking about all the work i have to do is killing me. here's my list...completed and yet to get done:

[ ] Pillow
[ ] Re finish an end table
[x] collage
[ ] Chalk Pastel Drawing
[ ] Photography project # 1
[ ] Photography Project # 2
[ ] Essay thing

i've started on most of these things, but i still have a lot to do. therefore, i'm gonna be mega busy this week. i'm gonna force myself to stay off the computer for the majority of the day.

basically, i'm feeling very unmotivated and not creative this month. this lovely month of july. i just dont wanna do anything except sit around and eat. i cant even come up with interesting things to talk about with people. i've read my friend's posts on her blog and i can't even come up with anything interesting to reply. i think i'm just being anhedonic. cuz it's summer and i'm missing my friends and i have to go to highschool next year. which makes me think that i'm afraid to grow up...and i should really do some self-reflecting.