wet hot american summer

well, i got back from florida on the 19th. i had a pretty alright time. ate a lot of good food. got to go on the beaches before the oil started washing up. became a little less pale. did not learn how to swim. sweat a lot. had really bad hair every day. bought a few things. mostly, i had a lot of simple fun with my family. wish i could have stayed longer or brought a few people with me. theres a lot to do in pensacola.
hm, what else has been going on? i took my road test on the 21st. failed it. epicly. its half my fault because i let my anxiety affect me so much. its half the driving schools fault because i had a drive time that morning and the instructor told me i was doing everything perfect and i would probably pass my test. however, she forgot to mention all of the little details i would need for my test. whatever. now, i have to wait until september to try again. how awesome...
i think i decided that i'm done with twitter. i havent deleted my account or anything. but i did stop getting updates on my phone and i deleted my twitter contact. twitter seemed fun when i was the only one of my friends to have it. then, a few of my friends got it and it wasnt bad. but now so many people i know have it that i cant even say anything without risking judgement. its like every time i quote a song lyric that i like people have to ask questions about it. i dont know. it just got really annoying. twitter was like a mini blog for me. i could get all of my little random thoughts out and it felt really good to not have everything clogged up in my head. but whatever. ill miss getting info from bands and stuff too. and ill miss the occasional funny or cute tweets i used to get. all in all, i guess im glad to not be involved with everyone elses business and shit anymore.
i wish i was doing more this summer. like going to a concert or hanging out with more friends. its pretty sad that theres only one person i make plans with and theres only one person i talk to all day every day. i dont want to blame myself but i cant completely blame everyone else. i have gone swimming with the boys this summer. and i have gone to a couple sleepovers. it just sucks having a job. apparently, working at 4pm means that the rest of my day has to be full of nothing. ugh. not to mention the fact that most of my not so big paycheck has to go towards saving for things so i never have any spending money. i wish i was less of a complainer.
i recently got an account on last.fm and i finally actually updated my account on playlist.com. music helps distract me. i made a john mayer playlist yesterday. literally, i put practically every john mayer song ever made on that playlist. ive listened to one song so far haha. sad sad sad. last.fm im not sure why i got an account on. its pretty cool because you learn about new artists and it shows you people who have similar music interests as you. but im not sure i want to get into making more random friends online. speaking of random online friends, flash flash revolution is supposed to be coming back soon. considering the fact that my best friend in the entire universe is on there, i might go back on. however, once again, im not sure i want to get back into the whole talking to people online thing. when i do that it just seems like im wasting my life when i could be out talking to my real friends. who knows. we will see.
i really wanted to go see toy story 3 but it came out while i was in florida and now i feel like its too late to go see it. i hate being the only one in a movie theater. i absolutely despise it. despicable me is coming out soon. it looks so fucking adorable. im definitely going to make sure i go see that one. i still havent decided if im going to warped tour this year. it comes to milwaukee the day after i get back from california. im just not sure i want to spend all of that money to see only a few bands that arent even my favorite bands. i really wanted to go to summer fest this year because like a bazillion bands that i love were going. passion pit, sick puppies, silversun pickups, the devil wears prada, neon trees, paper tongues, more more more more more. but summer fest goes on for like 10 days and its 15 dollars a day for admission and its in milwaukee. needless to say, i dont have the money or a ride and i have a job that conflicts with pretty much every day i wanted to go. oh well. im just hoping that the silversun pickups tour again because they are AMAZING and ive missed them every time they come to this area.
so its summer. almost july. that means that summer is almost 1/3 over. i better start living it up while i can.

lets start a war together and die at the same time

wow, it's officially the end of my sophomore year. i never thought i would want summer to come so fast. this year definitely had its share of ups and downs. sadly, i think the downs are what is most prominent in my memory. all i can say is that i'm so glad i had certain people in my life to help me get through my roughest times and i'm even more glad that they put up with my crazy ass mood swings. i'm not sure what changes have occured within me this year. i'm still obnoxiously shy like i've always been. i still only wear skinny jeans and i love my band tees. i guess i am more of a fun seeker in a way. i love hanging out with my boys. i don't know what i would do without them. those kids make me laugh so much. except when they throw fireworks and me. that's not much fun.
got a job at pizza hut not too long ago. lucky for me, i get to work with tj. i've only actually worked one day so far but i work for the next three nights. i can't help but let my anxiety get to me. i'm afraid of messing up when it really counts. however, i am positive i will eventually get the hang of things and hopefully i won't dread going to my job.
what to do what to do what to do.
suddenly, all of my summer plans seem less exciting than before. i leave for florida on friday. in a couple of weeks, i do my last drive time and take my drive test. lets all hope i pass. california will be in july still. maybe i'll be going to summer fest and warped tour. i'm just afraid that work is going to interfere with everything. if i can't go see silversun pickups at summer fest because of work, i might just kill myself. bleh =p
rawr. i really don't know what else to say. this whole keeping up with my blogging thing hasn't really worked out. oh well. not like many people care.
did i ever rant about why alternative music is the best? even if i did, i'm going to do it again right here.
alternative music can be listened to no matter what mood you're in. happy, sad, lonely, angry, excited, in love, heartbroken, thoughtful, empty. i could go on for hours. alternative music has so many varieties. you can listen to it at so many events. birthday parties, graduation parties, in a clothing store, in a restaraunt, at a party, sitting with your significant other, when doing chores, when doing art, when you're alone and don't have anything better to do. i don't think you could ever go wrong with alternative music.