vampires will never hurt you

i wish that i could sleep forever. nothing i say will ever fix things. so many people have told me to let you go and it seems like you dont want me...should i keep fighting? i wish you would see how much i care and how much im sorry for the trouble ive caused.

you know about my problems. ive trusted you with everything. ive shared my secrets, my faults, and you promised you would never leave me. you promised you would stand by me through everything. you told me you loved me so much and you cared. lately, you dont say that anymore...and i wish you could see how much this hurts. im not the type of person to be clingy and pathetic over someone. i cant help myself when it comes to you. i trusted you, you told me things i couldnt resist, we were in love...

ive been so stressed. im touchy when you say certain things. i even told you that. yet, you get so angry and you tell me how stupid i am. you tell me im dumb for the way i feel. you tell me you want to give up. you shit talk me behind my back. you blame me for ruining your relationship when all i ever did was help. i saved your relationship once and i wonder if you even remember that. you tell me i cant talk to your girlfriend when shes the only one who can possibly understand what ive been going through with you.

we have a secret that no one will ever know. does that even matter anymore? are things even the same? or are you completely done with me? you blamed me for all of this. i took the fall when everyone else was upset about our problems. you didnt even care because you honestly think i caused all of this. you cant stand it when someone points out one of your flaws. youll never say your sorry and mean it. now, i wonder if you ever meant those promises. if you ever meant it when you said you loved me. we were so quick to love, and youre so quick to hate.

i would do anything to keep from losing you...no matter how wrong it is. i just cant fathom the fact that you loved me so much...and now you just want to get me out of your life. how did this even happen? one bad week...

new years is coming up. we had so much planned. watching the breakfast club, eating oreo cereal, and sooooo much more. i would do anything to reverse time. i told you i would drop everything i have for you and i meant it. you never felt that way...

i feel like i just fell for a whole bunch of lies...i cant even express how i feel in the proper way.

i wish my life was like a vampire romance. this vampire guy comes to town and immediately spots the needy and refrained girl. he would never judge her. he knows shes the only one who would understand. he would never hurt her. when he says he loves her, he means it. he would literally have his world come crashing down in order to please her...no matter how much she pushes him away, hell always be there when she beckons him back to her. he understands her completely. he is so patient.

vampires will never hurt you...

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this needs a lot of work. much revisions and possibly additions. most likely doesn't follow many rules of poetry either. oh well. i am a little rusty so i guess it works.

the air so cold it could pierce
my skin, so delicate.
the face i wear is fierce.
from my eye, falls a droplet.

it's all a masquerade
as i watch my life fade.

hearts as black as coal.
i find it hard to see.
a lost and troubled soul.
what is left for me?

but could you watch me go?
my skin as white as snow.

like ten different people
trapped in a single figure.
i'd soon climb the tallest steeple,
begging God, "take me to the azure,".

when i've forgotten who i am,
you bring me right back again.

love found in the most curious of places,
hidden from the world in secrecy.
a never ending chase.
who holds my heart and the key?

someday, i'll figure everything out.
until then, please hold me from my doubt.