Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Hinderance
sometimes the printer version of online articles isn't a good thing. i pretty much just wasted a crap load of ink on a supposed "printer version" of this article for Seasonal Affective Disorder [SAD]. that makes me angry cuz the words are so friggin small and one page is almost completely blue...*sigh* btw, Seasonal Affective Disorder is sorta a lame thing to research. it's so obvious. people feel depressed when the sun isn't out and the weather is cold. so they use light box treatments to make them happy again. wow. *hits self on head* i can't believe i choose that of all things to research for my health report.
on a another note, i have a million books i need to read. okay, so it's only three. one of them is Breaking Dawn by Stephenie Meyer. i'm reading that for recreational purposes but i haven't actually had the time to pick it up and read it. the other is The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath. i've read it before but i decided to read it again for my health book report. i don't understand the purpose of a book report for health anyway. i really like that book A LOT so i don't mind reading it. however, i had to throw in a third book for english class. i choose Tom Sawyer by Mark Twain because it's an "advanced reader" and i own it. yeah. too many things to read and not enuf time to read them cuz i have so much other homework.
well guys, that's all i have. thanks for listening to me grumble on about stuff that doesn't affect any of you. =] it's what i do.
"A neurotic is a man who builds a castle in the sky. A psychotic is the man who lives in it. A psychiatrist is the man who charges them both rent." ~Jerome Lawrence
on a another note, i have a million books i need to read. okay, so it's only three. one of them is Breaking Dawn by Stephenie Meyer. i'm reading that for recreational purposes but i haven't actually had the time to pick it up and read it. the other is The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath. i've read it before but i decided to read it again for my health book report. i don't understand the purpose of a book report for health anyway. i really like that book A LOT so i don't mind reading it. however, i had to throw in a third book for english class. i choose Tom Sawyer by Mark Twain because it's an "advanced reader" and i own it. yeah. too many things to read and not enuf time to read them cuz i have so much other homework.
well guys, that's all i have. thanks for listening to me grumble on about stuff that doesn't affect any of you. =] it's what i do.
"A neurotic is a man who builds a castle in the sky. A psychotic is the man who lives in it. A psychiatrist is the man who charges them both rent." ~Jerome Lawrence
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
You Know You Live In 2008 When...
1.) You accidentally enter your password on a microwave
2.) You haven't played solitaire with real cards for years
3.) The reason for not staying in touch with your friends is they don't have a screen name or my space
4.) You'd rather look all over the house for the remote instead of just pushing the buttons on the TV
6.) Your boss doesn't even have the ability to do your job
7.) As you read this list you keep nodding and smiling
8.) As you read this list you think about sending it to all your friends
9.) And you were too busy to notice number 5
10.) You scrolled back up to see if there was a number 5
11.) Now you are laughing at yourself stupidly
12.) Put this in your profile if you fell for that, and you know you did.
2.) You haven't played solitaire with real cards for years
3.) The reason for not staying in touch with your friends is they don't have a screen name or my space
4.) You'd rather look all over the house for the remote instead of just pushing the buttons on the TV
6.) Your boss doesn't even have the ability to do your job
7.) As you read this list you keep nodding and smiling
8.) As you read this list you think about sending it to all your friends
9.) And you were too busy to notice number 5
10.) You scrolled back up to see if there was a number 5
11.) Now you are laughing at yourself stupidly
12.) Put this in your profile if you fell for that, and you know you did.
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
It's A Big One Folks!
Lars and the Real Girl, The Truman Show, and I Am Sam are three very good movies. i suggest you watch them sometime. speaking of movies, i really wanna see Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind. does anyone know if it's any good?
this kid in my art class asked me out today. i said no i didn't want a boyfriend right now. the dumbest excuse i could come up with at the time. according to my friend tai and her friend jessie, this kid [kevin] is seriously crushing on me. they decided it would be a good idea to tell him to ask me out. damn it was awkward cuz i don't like him [he's not that cute i guess you could say]. basically, that was a situation i would've loved to avoid. XP
ART CLASS! more. this kid has a friend. her name is ashley. so today when i was gonna ask the teacher a question [she was sitting by kevin] she stopped me and asked exactly how many band t shirts i owned. i told her i couldn't really list them all on the spot. so she said that i needed to make her a list of all of them and give it to her so she could plan out my wardrobe for next week. i made the list [i have 12 shirts] but i'm not sure if i'm really gonna let her tell me what to wear. it was interesting. her and her friend said that i looked like a sophomore and shouldn't tell people that i'm actually a freshy. *shrugs*
i think i have like 3 tests tomorrow. i have a lot to do. bums me out.
i'm purdy excited [times a lot] cuz you'll never guess what. =D i still can't believe this but on october 17th me and katie are going to see COBRA STARSHIP, FOREVER THE SICKEST KIDS, HIT THE LIGHTS, AND SING IT LOUD. hot damn! my mom agreed to take us and i'm excited. this isn't like our first concert, i actually know 3/4 of the bands. the first concert we went to [AP Tour] i only truly knew one band [The Matches]. but yesh! this is gonna be sweet. i'm hoping to pick up a killa cobra starship shirt. i had more to say about this but i completely forgot. dang.
i wanna join the GSA. Gay Straight Alliance. but i don't think i can manage it right now. i'm getting a lot of homework and i'm really bad at managing my time and my mom isn't very approving of that club. i think i'm going to have to wait until next year which is a really stupid move on my part. but ah well.
this kid in my art class asked me out today. i said no i didn't want a boyfriend right now. the dumbest excuse i could come up with at the time. according to my friend tai and her friend jessie, this kid [kevin] is seriously crushing on me. they decided it would be a good idea to tell him to ask me out. damn it was awkward cuz i don't like him [he's not that cute i guess you could say]. basically, that was a situation i would've loved to avoid. XP
ART CLASS! more. this kid has a friend. her name is ashley. so today when i was gonna ask the teacher a question [she was sitting by kevin] she stopped me and asked exactly how many band t shirts i owned. i told her i couldn't really list them all on the spot. so she said that i needed to make her a list of all of them and give it to her so she could plan out my wardrobe for next week. i made the list [i have 12 shirts] but i'm not sure if i'm really gonna let her tell me what to wear. it was interesting. her and her friend said that i looked like a sophomore and shouldn't tell people that i'm actually a freshy. *shrugs*
i think i have like 3 tests tomorrow. i have a lot to do. bums me out.
i'm purdy excited [times a lot] cuz you'll never guess what. =D i still can't believe this but on october 17th me and katie are going to see COBRA STARSHIP, FOREVER THE SICKEST KIDS, HIT THE LIGHTS, AND SING IT LOUD. hot damn! my mom agreed to take us and i'm excited. this isn't like our first concert, i actually know 3/4 of the bands. the first concert we went to [AP Tour] i only truly knew one band [The Matches]. but yesh! this is gonna be sweet. i'm hoping to pick up a killa cobra starship shirt. i had more to say about this but i completely forgot. dang.
i wanna join the GSA. Gay Straight Alliance. but i don't think i can manage it right now. i'm getting a lot of homework and i'm really bad at managing my time and my mom isn't very approving of that club. i think i'm going to have to wait until next year which is a really stupid move on my part. but ah well.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Oh Hot Damn~This Is My Jam
s-s-so i'm sick of starting every post with the word "so". it's not very interesting. i also think there need to be more text colors for this. i need a better variety.
i-i-i've been having a lot of anxiety at school. it mostly occurs when i'm walking thru the halls or sitting at lunch or in a class without friends. i can't control myself and i keep looking at the people around me to see what they're doing. i can't stand sitting in the front row of a classroom [i also don't like sitting in the back corner] because i need to see the people around me. it's a paranoia feeling. i'm not kidding. i don't get why i feel this. i get it a lot in art class. i'm too afraid to talk to the teacher about my project. i don't wanna ask teachers questions cuz i feel like someone will hear what i'm saying and they'll think something bad about me. there's my main problem. i'm so worried about what other people are thinking. when i'm walking thru the halls and trying to dodge people, i feel like everyone has their eyes focused on me.
h-h-however, i'm thinking that this won't last long. well, at least that's what i;m hoping. there's really no reason for it. besides that, school is school. not exactly fun but not horrible. it's school.
i-i-i've been having a lot of anxiety at school. it mostly occurs when i'm walking thru the halls or sitting at lunch or in a class without friends. i can't control myself and i keep looking at the people around me to see what they're doing. i can't stand sitting in the front row of a classroom [i also don't like sitting in the back corner] because i need to see the people around me. it's a paranoia feeling. i'm not kidding. i don't get why i feel this. i get it a lot in art class. i'm too afraid to talk to the teacher about my project. i don't wanna ask teachers questions cuz i feel like someone will hear what i'm saying and they'll think something bad about me. there's my main problem. i'm so worried about what other people are thinking. when i'm walking thru the halls and trying to dodge people, i feel like everyone has their eyes focused on me.
h-h-however, i'm thinking that this won't last long. well, at least that's what i;m hoping. there's really no reason for it. besides that, school is school. not exactly fun but not horrible. it's school.
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
To Hell And Back...
i heard wiL francis had a side projekt going on. i read it in an issue of AP. gotta love that magazine
The smoke clears and in whispering waves of self-mutilation I can see the dark sky fall to pieces.
The world is sometimes too heavy to breath and the dead surround me like an ocean.
I can’t recognize the reflection looking back through the mirror.
I only grasp the concept of what it’s like to walk through life with a stranger holding a knife to my neck.
The empty shell of a shattered boy I know possess is my new skin.
Pain is my only horizon, hate, is my only form of flattery, ugly is the world around me and nowhere beyond the infinite infrastructure of the eternal lonely soul can my blackened heart be found.
If you want a glimpse of torment and bittersweet visions delight, I’ll gladly cut my head off so you can look down the hole.
Nothing there will bring the joyful bliss you crave.
Drinking lighter fluid to start a fire inside my guts, I am on a slow painful ride through the underbelly of hell and I wont mind if this is where we say goodbye and go our separate ways.
I am inside of you.
Living and breathing.
I am William Control
it's supposed to be electronica/new wave/rock. i really liked the sample thing. it sounds sorta dark [ok, REALLY dark] and i think i like it. i cant wait for something to be released. i'm sad tho, cuz he's been touring this around and i friggin miss everything.
The smoke clears and in whispering waves of self-mutilation I can see the dark sky fall to pieces.
The world is sometimes too heavy to breath and the dead surround me like an ocean.
I can’t recognize the reflection looking back through the mirror.
I only grasp the concept of what it’s like to walk through life with a stranger holding a knife to my neck.
The empty shell of a shattered boy I know possess is my new skin.
Pain is my only horizon, hate, is my only form of flattery, ugly is the world around me and nowhere beyond the infinite infrastructure of the eternal lonely soul can my blackened heart be found.
If you want a glimpse of torment and bittersweet visions delight, I’ll gladly cut my head off so you can look down the hole.
Nothing there will bring the joyful bliss you crave.
Drinking lighter fluid to start a fire inside my guts, I am on a slow painful ride through the underbelly of hell and I wont mind if this is where we say goodbye and go our separate ways.
I am inside of you.
Living and breathing.
I am William Control
it's supposed to be electronica/new wave/rock. i really liked the sample thing. it sounds sorta dark [ok, REALLY dark] and i think i like it. i cant wait for something to be released. i'm sad tho, cuz he's been touring this around and i friggin miss everything.
Friday, September 12, 2008
PROOF! that katie is the bestest person in the world
looky, i put ur lovely drawing [with crayons on here] i wanted to show it off =]
Ashley > Jon Walker, Chad Sugg (AKA God), Frank Iero, and Patrick Stump
idk how this is possible but in katie's mind it is =] that's why katie is the bestest person ever
Ashley > Jon Walker, Chad Sugg (AKA God), Frank Iero, and Patrick Stump
idk how this is possible but in katie's mind it is =] that's why katie is the bestest person ever
ZomFg
idk what the z is really about
so i was watching the news just now. like this very second. looking at the hurricane ike updates. my friend alex lives in DFW, Texas so i just wanted to see. it's more inland so idk. it's supposed to pass right thru there but hopefully it won't be horrible. what do i care? the kid is just being a douche right now anyway. ah well, that wasn't my point. after i got done watching ike they did the "making a difference" segment. and it was all about to write love on her arms. i was obnoxiously excited. they had jamie on there and they had the girl who inspired it all. they talked about the story and how they help kids and the website. it's kinda a stupid thing, but i'm jealous of all those kids who are on there. that's stupid cuz i'm jealous of their problems and the attention they get for them. anyway, i thought that was so cool to be hearing about that on national telly. i heard about twloha like a year ago and i just think it's an amazing organization. i'm really glad that it's getting the publicity it deserves. yay! =]
so i was watching the news just now. like this very second. looking at the hurricane ike updates. my friend alex lives in DFW, Texas so i just wanted to see. it's more inland so idk. it's supposed to pass right thru there but hopefully it won't be horrible. what do i care? the kid is just being a douche right now anyway. ah well, that wasn't my point. after i got done watching ike they did the "making a difference" segment. and it was all about to write love on her arms. i was obnoxiously excited. they had jamie on there and they had the girl who inspired it all. they talked about the story and how they help kids and the website. it's kinda a stupid thing, but i'm jealous of all those kids who are on there. that's stupid cuz i'm jealous of their problems and the attention they get for them. anyway, i thought that was so cool to be hearing about that on national telly. i heard about twloha like a year ago and i just think it's an amazing organization. i'm really glad that it's getting the publicity it deserves. yay! =]
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
XD
i'm currently following myself. haha keeping track of all the things i say and do. it's an important task. katie is also following me. for some odd reason, this girl wants to hear me talk and talk and talk and talk. well, if you enjoy doing this also [i can't imagine why] please, feel free to follow my blog. maybe i'll decide to follow yours also =] win win situation
This Color Quiz Thing That Katie Made Me Take
so i took this cuz katie told me to and i decided to post my lil results.
Ashley's Existing Situation
Active, but feels that insufficient progress or reward is being made for the effort exerted.
Ashley's Stress Sources
Has an unsatisfied need to ally herself with others whose standards are as high as her own, and to stand out from the herd. This desire for preeminence isolates her and inhibits her readiness to give herself freely. While she wants to surrender and let herself go, she regards this as a weakness which must be resisted. This self-restraint, she feels, will lift her above the rank and file and ensure recognition as a unique and distinctive personality.
Ashley's Restrained Characteristics
Has high emotional demands and is willing to involve herself in a close relationship, but not with any great depth of feeling.
Insists that her goals are realistic and sticks obstinately to them, even though circumstances are forcing her to compromise. Very exacting in the standards she applies to her choice of a partner.
Ashley's Desired Objective
Wants to make a favorable impression and be regarded as a special personality. Is therefore constantly on the watch to see whether she is succeeding in this and how others are reacting to her. this makes her feel she is in control. Uses tactics cleverly in order to obtain influence and special recognition. Susceptible to the esthetic or original.
Ashley's Actual Problem
Needs to be valued and respected as an exceptional individual, in order to increase her self-esteem and her feeling of personal worth. Resists mediocrity and sets herself high standards.
woah, it put my name in and stuff. anyway, i really liked this thing. and it gave pretty accurate results. yeah, that's kinda how i am. i think you should take it also. DO IT
Ashley's Existing Situation
Active, but feels that insufficient progress or reward is being made for the effort exerted.
Ashley's Stress Sources
Has an unsatisfied need to ally herself with others whose standards are as high as her own, and to stand out from the herd. This desire for preeminence isolates her and inhibits her readiness to give herself freely. While she wants to surrender and let herself go, she regards this as a weakness which must be resisted. This self-restraint, she feels, will lift her above the rank and file and ensure recognition as a unique and distinctive personality.
Ashley's Restrained Characteristics
Has high emotional demands and is willing to involve herself in a close relationship, but not with any great depth of feeling.
Insists that her goals are realistic and sticks obstinately to them, even though circumstances are forcing her to compromise. Very exacting in the standards she applies to her choice of a partner.
Ashley's Desired Objective
Wants to make a favorable impression and be regarded as a special personality. Is therefore constantly on the watch to see whether she is succeeding in this and how others are reacting to her. this makes her feel she is in control. Uses tactics cleverly in order to obtain influence and special recognition. Susceptible to the esthetic or original.
Ashley's Actual Problem
Needs to be valued and respected as an exceptional individual, in order to increase her self-esteem and her feeling of personal worth. Resists mediocrity and sets herself high standards.
woah, it put my name in and stuff. anyway, i really liked this thing. and it gave pretty accurate results. yeah, that's kinda how i am. i think you should take it also. DO IT
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
It's What's Goin Down
alrighty, so i just took this lil life expectancy test. it was a small assignment for my healthy class. i guess right now i'm gonna live to about 63. however, if i go to some sort of graduate school, i'll live to be around 66. weird how education affects that sort of thing. that's really not that long. prolly cuz i never exercise. but i don't smoke or drink. i hate to say it but i think that thing is a bunch of bulls***. sorry =/
school started september 2nd. tbqh, i really wasn't scared at all. i didn't get lost the first day. so far my classes aren't obnoxiously hard or anything. chemistry is prolly my least favorite. i wish i knew more people in my class cuz now my lab partner is sorta a ditz. that doesn't matter much. english is my favorite. definitly. i'm getting a good dose of homework daily so that's kinda bleh. overall, highschool isn't that bad but it's also not a thrill. it's just school. =]
and i'm a wee bit excited right now. so the cobra starship, forever the sickest kids, hit the lights and sing it loud tour is coming around and my mom is actually considering taking me and katie. she just has to look at tickets and everything. she said she'll maybe take us as long as we don't banish her to a corner. even tho i can be mean to my mom sometimes, i don't think i would do that to her. she might almost be a hot guy repelant but why should she sit in the dark while we have the time of our lives? it just doesn't seem fair.
ugh! idk why i'm talking about this so much but just wait katie. i'm hoping my mom will decide this week. k? you order the tickets and i'll pay you back. =D
a lot of my friends are acting sorta different now that school has started. i used to text my friend alex all the time and now he seems like he's annoyed by me. =/ and jocelyn has become a major drama queen. she's taking quite some time to adjust to highschool. and zac, i used to hate him a lot but last saturday he was really really nice to me so now i guess i don't care anymore. i can't think of any more right now.
i should get to doing my homework cuz i do have a lot of it. woo! i'll get right on that...eventually =]
school started september 2nd. tbqh, i really wasn't scared at all. i didn't get lost the first day. so far my classes aren't obnoxiously hard or anything. chemistry is prolly my least favorite. i wish i knew more people in my class cuz now my lab partner is sorta a ditz. that doesn't matter much. english is my favorite. definitly. i'm getting a good dose of homework daily so that's kinda bleh. overall, highschool isn't that bad but it's also not a thrill. it's just school. =]
and i'm a wee bit excited right now. so the cobra starship, forever the sickest kids, hit the lights and sing it loud tour is coming around and my mom is actually considering taking me and katie. she just has to look at tickets and everything. she said she'll maybe take us as long as we don't banish her to a corner. even tho i can be mean to my mom sometimes, i don't think i would do that to her. she might almost be a hot guy repelant but why should she sit in the dark while we have the time of our lives? it just doesn't seem fair.
ugh! idk why i'm talking about this so much but just wait katie. i'm hoping my mom will decide this week. k? you order the tickets and i'll pay you back. =D
a lot of my friends are acting sorta different now that school has started. i used to text my friend alex all the time and now he seems like he's annoyed by me. =/ and jocelyn has become a major drama queen. she's taking quite some time to adjust to highschool. and zac, i used to hate him a lot but last saturday he was really really nice to me so now i guess i don't care anymore. i can't think of any more right now.
i should get to doing my homework cuz i do have a lot of it. woo! i'll get right on that...eventually =]
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